.::Shag me, Dr. Treves::.
::I have the curious desperate need to make out with someone right now. ...Seriously. (Where is Dr. Treves when I need him?)
That was a totally random statement.... that was true. So it deserved posting.::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/31/2004 06:43:00 PM:.
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.:Sunday, May 30, 2004:.
.::New Layout::.
::I LOVE MY NEW LAYOUT!
I spent... like... three hours working on layout....
and I love it.
Go free time.
This is an awesome layout
I have a tagboard now! Sign!::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/30/2004 06:20:00 PM:.
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.:Friday, May 28, 2004:.
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::PATHETIC SINGLE PERSON APPRECIATION PARTY!!!!!!
We are partying right now.
Mau is the best game... EVER. I mean it.
"Point of order. WHAT THE FUCK?!?!"
"AAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!"
"NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!"
-Rolls around on floor-
"No! NO! NOOOOO!!!!!! NO! No."
"Point of order. I HATE YOU! End point of order."
"Point of order. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! End point of order."
"Penalty for not kissing the jack. Penalty for not saying 'baa'." "WHAT?!" "Penalty for talking."
"Point of order." Picks up bottle, throws forcefully at Allison. "End point of order."
"Point of order. DIIIIIEEEE!!!" Allison is forcefully strangled. "End point of order."
"Point of order." Nick and Jesse hands up, wide eyes, slightly freaked look.
GO MAU!
Jesse, you will get over your mental breakdown. At least you're talking, now...::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/28/2004 10:44:00 PM:.
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::I just recieved probably the nicest email I've ever gotten. Thank you, Emily, for making my day. Dawn Shirley, too... for what she emailed and included in the vocal team schedule :-) I LOVE YOU GUYS AT MECK! Nicest people in the world. :-D
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>Hi Allison!
>Just saw that you are soon headed to Germany to study for awhile! So
>excited for you and the possibilities for your perspective and vision to
>just explode during this experience....You are a smart and courageous
>gal and I will praying for your strength and safety as you encounter
>this "new world." Feel free to email me while you're there if you want
>to stay in touch! I'd love to hear from you...Take care,
>love, emily:-)
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>It is not our abilities that show what we truly are. It is our choices.
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>- Professor Dumbledore to Harry in "Harry Potter and the Chamber of
>Secrets," by J.K. Rowling
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(Sent out with vocal team schedule for June)
Allison - Allison will be leaving us at the end of June to spend a year in Germany. Allison, I hope that you have a wonderful experience abroad and you will be in our thoughts and prayers. As you were singing Wednesday night, I was thinking of how exciting it will be when you rejoin us and we get to hear all about your experiences and will get to reacquaint ourselves with the young woman that you have become. What an exciting opportunity!
Dawn Shirley
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(and another email from Dawn)
Hey Allison,
I scheduled you for two weeks in June, however, I just wanted to let you know that you can sing more if you want. I didn't want to overwhelm you but also want to serve you. So, just let me know if you want to join in on any of the other services.
Take care,
Dawn
P.S. - you were a joy to listen to last Wednesday! Great job!::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/28/2004 03:59:00 PM:.
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.:Thursday, May 27, 2004:.
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::Okay... so I really wish I was a part of the senior recognition/festivity/stuff.... AGH. I AM A SENIOR. YET I DON'T DO THESE THINGS.... because I wasn't a senior at the beginning of the year.... but I am now. Um... I'm pathetic, I know, but I'm frustrated with this right now. No senior picnic. No senior tiles. Not even those senior roses during choir, no certificates, no....anything.
This sucks.
I'm going to go sit in a corner and sulk in my pathetic jealousy now. Eat some chocolate. Drink some orange juice. And feel mopey and bad for myself. I KNOW I have the best friends... quite a portion of whom are juniors... I have some senior friends... and of course my sophomore friends (*waves to Caroline, Jesse, Val, and Anna*) but... forgive me for wanting to get to do the Last Days at Northwest stuff that all the seniors take for granted! Jeez...
I feel like going to Meck right now. I feel appreciated there... well-liked... and... well, appreciated and well-liked are about as good as it gets, for me anyways. So a haven for me right now would be up on stage singing with Rick and Dana and Emily and Jennifer and Brenda. (I KNOW none of these people have this URL... but I think they should know they're well appreciated. I have to think of something to do for them before I go anywhere).
Not to be redundant, but having no senior priveleges while in the midst of seniordom sucks.
(Okay, so maybe it was redundant. It's just sickeningly true.)
If you haven't done it yet.. complete the survey below... because the answers are certainly amusing! :-)::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/27/2004 11:31:00 PM:.
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.:Wednesday, May 26, 2004:.
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::Life is a sweet thing.
Hey... I need some advice, anyone up to a heart-to-heart talk?
My solo went well. Except that it sounded a million times better in practice then onstage. But it still went well.
See lyrics below. These should be labelled "In the Blink of an Eye, by Mercy Me"... except that I forgot. I still think I'm adopting them as life motto.
Something happened to my links section. Or is that only on my computer?
My computer doesn't work right. Warning to... lots of people, I guess. The computer is messed up. Therefore my online patterns, email-checking capabilites (limited to phone, so any replies will be short), and anything else-involving-computer capabilites will be limited.
So... yeah.
Quick Survey:
1. What word do you think best describes me?
2. If you could give me any one object in the world, what would it be?
3. What do I hate?
4. What do I love?
5. What five people do you think I would invite to a party realisticly?
6. What five people do you think I would invite to a party if I could invite anyone in the world?
7. What is my favourite word/phrase?
8. What annoys you most about me?
9. What do you like most about me?
10. And lastly, if you could ask me only one question, what would it be?
(ANSWER IN COMMENTS. AND PLEASE DO ANSWER! :-) )::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/26/2004 11:18:00 PM:.
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.:Tuesday, May 25, 2004:.
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::YAY I'm singing a solo at Meck! :-)
Sorry I can't be online much... my computer's about out of power.
Don't you love it when you find lyrics that apply to your life? This song should be my life's motto.
You put me here for a reason
You have a mission for me
You knew my name and You called it
Long before I learned to breathe
Sometimes I feel disappointed
By the way I spend my time
How can I further Your kingdom
When I'm so wrapped up in mine
In a Blink of an eye that is when
I'll be closer to You than I've ever been
Time will fly, but until then
I'll embrace every moment I'm given
There's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eye
And though I'm living a good life
Can my life be something great?
I have to answer the question
Before it's too late
Cause in a Blink of an eye that is when
I'll be closer to You than I've ever been
Time will fly, but until then
I'll embrace every moment I'm given
There's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eye
If I give the very best of me
That becomes my legacy
So tell me what am I waiting for?
What am I waiting for?
In a Blink of an eye that is when
I'll be closer to You than I've ever been
Time will fly, but until then
I'll embrace every moment I'm given
In a Blink of an eye that is when
I'll be closer to You than I've ever been
Time will fly, but until then
I'll embrace every moment I'm given
There's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eye
Oh... and to add a note... Brett, if you get this message, I'm having computer troubles. So I may not be able to meet you online. Sorry!::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/25/2004 08:11:00 PM:.
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.:Sunday, May 23, 2004:.
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::Hmmm...
I don't know what to say. Except that there's someone I really need to talk to right now.
If you're reading this, and have no idea what I was talking about in the last entry, then this doesn't affect you in the slightest, and please don't ask me about it, because I don't think that I know what I THINK about it right now, so how could I possibly begin to explain it?
Besides... it's not... just me.
This is strange. Not worrisome. Not bad. Just weird. Confusing. Strange.
Sign on. Right now. And let's clear this up a bit.
All my music is happy music. I don't have any confused music. I need teenage angsty music right now... so I can think.
I'm not in a bad mood. Or an angsty mood.
Just sort of confused.
In a good way.
I think.
Time to break out the old Kau journal and resurrect the magic healing properties of writing.::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/23/2004 10:25:00 PM:.
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.:Saturday, May 22, 2004:.
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::Um... I wish Blogger had private posts. I'm weirded out.... in a good way.... I think. I think I need to go upstairs and listen to some music and sort my life out. Sounds good to me. Life can throw curveballs! I'm seriously ready for some Meck rocking tomorrow. Some un-calmness. Some chaos. Some busy-ness. I hope Rick sings a rock-ish song again, like Alive. Once I'm busy, I do not think as much, and then life resumes it's awesomeness and I'm no longer confused. Even though I'm confused in a good way.
Aahh. I don't know WHAT to say, except that... this is weird... in a good way. But very strange nonetheless.
So I just had something... strange happen. Do I like it? That is still to be determined.
Life is still an awesome thing. Even when I'm slightly befuddled.
This is a kerfuffle in the life of Allison.
Oh. And I'm renewing my request for a talk with a senior. (Except Jennifer. Because I've already asked you.)::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/22/2004 11:33:00 PM:.
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::Um... HAHAHAHAHAHA!
there isnt a first question, so shut up.
2-what will you be when you are 54...a dog-puff or a cat-lick-- what's the difference? it's all about the q-tips.
3-why, if the world was created in seven days, and all men are created in jesus' image, does marylin continue to wear such high panties?- Does ice cream have bones?
4-how much of your life is spent farting?- I don't pay attention. As little as possible.
5-where in the word IS carmen sandeago?- I like that show. Well, I did when I was, like, eight, and I loved the computer game too. What a dorky kid I was.
6-did you know that the average person eats at least 8 spiders in their sleep before they die?- AAAHHH! SPIDERS! EW! THAT'S DISGUSTING!
7-what if the cool new word was "pasturev", would you use it?- Yeah. That's awesome.
8-if so, how? if not, why not?- as 'ghetto', because that would be fun. "Shaneequa is pasturev!"
9-whats your middle name?- Nicole.
and 10- if your falling out of a boat, which would you do first-fall, or scream?- Drown.
alright, now that you have answered all of these, make a sentance out of all of the second words in your answer. if there is no second word in an answer, then put a period in the sentance, and start again the same way. - The ice don't like SPIDERS! That's 'ghetto'..
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.:Arakatze blogged on 5/22/2004 10:52:00 PM:.
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::Hmmm.... Life still rules. It is an effervescent creek of laughter and happiness and everything that makes this world worthy of life. I love all of my friends. Can I say that enough? I am really going to miss you guys. But right now I'm not thinking about leaving. I'm just thinking about how awesome life really is. Is that a weird thing to say? Because.... ahhhh... perfection is a release of tensions, a lack of stress, a perfect equilibrium- :-)
I need to talk to Brett more often, because it's an experience worth having.
I have a serious question about graduation which I'd like to ask a few people about... Seniors... because seniors are the people who I think would know more about such things.
So if you're a senior, and you ever read this, leave a comment and let us converse in a less public place than my blog. I am rather selective about the group of people I want advice from on this... It needs to be a senior... because it's about graduation... and because it relates a lot more to me as a senior than me as a junior, in this junior/senior status I have right now.
And it really sucks when in your senior year you can't take advantage of senior stuff because it would be awkward.::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/22/2004 10:11:00 PM:.
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::JstAMnutePlMertn: I have a new favourite word!!!!
JstAMnutePlMertn: It was bacchanalia
JstAMnutePlMertn: now it is
JstAMnutePlMertn: defenestration
JstAMnutePlMertn: which means
Disciple543: LOL
JstAMnutePlMertn: 'a throwing of a person or thing out a window'
Disciple543: LOL
JstAMnutePlMertn: HAHAHAHAHAHA
JstAMnutePlMertn: I love the word 'callipygian' too
JstAMnutePlMertn: it means
JstAMnutePlMertn: 'having shapely buttocks'
JstAMnutePlMertn: and flibbertigibbet
JstAMnutePlMertn: 'a silly flighty person'
JstAMnutePlMertn: I suppose a flibbertigibbet is the kind of person who would say flibbertigibbet
Disciple543: lol
Disciple543: just a tid bit
Disciple543: on ellen's website
JstAMnutePlMertn: KERFUFFLE IS A WORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JstAMnutePlMertn: sorry, that's hilarious
JstAMnutePlMertn: say it
JstAMnutePlMertn: kerfuffle
Disciple543: you can watch her daily monologue's
JstAMnutePlMertn: kerfuffle
JstAMnutePlMertn: KERfuffle
Disciple543: LOL
JstAMnutePlMertn: kerFUFle
JstAMnutePlMertn: heheheheheheehhee
JstAMnutePlMertn: sorry
JstAMnutePlMertn: it's a really funny word
JstAMnutePlMertn: it's causing a kerfuffle
JstAMnutePlMertn: I will NEVER be able to say that without laughing
JstAMnutePlMertn: kerrrrrrFUFFFFFle
Disciple543: LOL
Disciple543: lololololol
JstAMnutePlMertn: hehehe
JstAMnutePlMertn: kerfuffly kerfuffly kerfuffle!
Disciple543: LOLOLOLOL
JstAMnutePlMertn: wheeee
JstAMnutePlMertn: okay
JstAMnutePlMertn: I'm done
Disciple543: LOL
Disciple543: yeah
JstAMnutePlMertn: but it's.. .really funny!
Disciple543: I'm really hyper now
JstAMnutePlMertn: hahahahahahahahahahaha
Disciple543: watching Ellen
JstAMnutePlMertn: well, you weren't the one going... KerFUFfle!
Disciple543: LOL
Disciple543: true
Disciple543: I can't say that I was
JstAMnutePlMertn: kerfuffly fuffpops!
Disciple543: LOL
JstAMnutePlMertn: kerrrrrrfuffle
JstAMnutePlMertn: hehehe
JstAMnutePlMertn: anyway
JstAMnutePlMertn: um
JstAMnutePlMertn: lets return back to seriousness
JstAMnutePlMertn: because I was enjoying solemnity
JstAMnutePlMertn: let's defenestrate this kerfuffle
JstAMnutePlMertn: (*laughs to self*)
Disciple543: LOL
Disciple543: I was too actually
JstAMnutePlMertn: what, defenestrating or enjoying solemnity?
JstAMnutePlMertn: if it was the latter, let's go back to being serious
JstAMnutePlMertn: lol
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.:Arakatze blogged on 5/22/2004 10:10:00 PM:.
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.:Friday, May 21, 2004:.
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I LOVE IT. HAHAHAHA! CSI: BOONE!::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/21/2004 10:38:00 PM:.
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.:Thursday, May 20, 2004:.
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:: You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.
"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He emerged from his own ashes, to be forever immortal."
Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl (Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum (Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life, the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.
As a member of Form 0, you are a determined individual. You tend to keep your sense of optimism, even through tough times and have a positive outlook on most situations. You have a way of looking at going through life as a journey that you can constantly learn from. Phoenixes are the best friends to have because they cheer people up easily.
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::THIS IS SO, SO, SO FUNNY.
Take special note of the bottom category... First act as Ruler...
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.:Arakatze blogged on 5/19/2004 08:43:00 PM:.
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This is one of the funniest things... ever... Hahahahahahahaha *evil cackle*
AND I TEST OUT OF ENGLISH CLASS ON TUESDAY! YES!::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/19/2004 08:24:00 PM:.
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.:Tuesday, May 18, 2004:.
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::I'm tired. My computer is dead. I'd like to talk to some people but, ah, no one is online. It's 11, so of course people are sleeping, like I should be. Good idea on their part. Maybe I'll go up to my bed... which as of today, is IN MY ROOM! YAY! No more sleeping in the guest room for me. Yayness.
Um, this is entertaining.
Hahahahahahaha. YES. YES!
Whitesidean logic is the best.
And everyone must always remember that in times of petty conflict, one must eat a piece of chocolate and move on. If there's nothing to be done... so be it. It shall rest forever.
Maybe that's why I'm a procrastinating optimist. Sometimes I revel in my own optimism. I get over life's problems by enjoying everyday life. I don't know that many people understand the fact that I love the fact that I can get up and go to school every morning. The day starts off great with car riding and car partying, continues with learning until lunch, a generally fun event, and the school day concludes with a 45-minute period of time set aside for iPod listening and thinking. Then, I might babysit for Megan (Which is a blast! And I'm not being sarcastic!) or the English class which is, thank God, nearly over, though I also enjoy that because I know I'm completing a year's worth of work in two weeks, and I'm proud of myself for that. After class or babysitting, I may have a church event (I LOVE MECK!) or a brief amount of time to get on the computer and talk to friends before I have to finish my homework and, eventually, get to sleep.
But you know what? I love this busy world I live in. I love having much to do, though I can complain... I really truly love it. I love my friends, I love Meck, I love Northwest, I freaking love life.
Is that so weird?
I'm so happy to be here. I'm so happy to be alive. I am relishing this coming month as if it's... chocolate frosting on a delicious cake... a finishing touch on something so wonderful it's almost hard to imagine it won't be around forever... something delicious and perfect and... ah... I'm getting mushy.
But I love life.::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/18/2004 11:15:00 PM:.
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.:Sunday, May 16, 2004:.
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::I am going to miss you like hell. I would reconsider, but would that lead me anywhere? But your adamant don't-go-ness has brightened many a day, because it's always nice to feel loved.
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Ah... I have mixed feelings about you, though. Sometimes a bit overbearing, sometimes perfect. What can I say? Too bad you'll be gone, too, what will I do in July?
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AH! Regrets.... Why are you no longer online, anyway? I still like you a lot. Maybe right now it would be impossible for me to see you in person, but I still value every second I get to talk to you online. And your enthusiasm... constant happiness... always encouraging. And I love feeling funny. Thank you.
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I hope you realise I get so damn concerned. But what can I do to help? And please... know you can count on me.
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I want to spend more time with you. You're awesome. So.. yes.
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Do you know how much I wish I was you? Such a perfect life, it seems. Maybe a few glitches, but do you even know how well-liked you are? How everyone wants to spend time with you over anyone else? I feel almost disliked around you, or put at second, but since you're so great, I almost don't care, because your personality makes me understand why. You're awesome. Stay that way.
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Go sit in a corner or at least just shut up, and save us all from your misery.
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Come over. Pick me up. Let's go somewhere. Now.
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Why do I feel like you're always fake-laughing, faking interest, pretending so much during our conversations? Admitted, we don't have as many as I would hope. But still... I wish you would truly be yourself.
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Get on a plane, fly here now, and let's go out for coffee and hit an artsy museum or gallery opening... or even movie premiere... something fancy, fun, and the type of thing to wear a beret and bring a paintbrush to. I would love to spend lots of time with you because you're so interesting, yet I can't get to know you much better, because distance is an issue. Ah, too bad... but still.
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I want to be a bitch like you can be. Somehow, for some reason, I admire that attitude, that attitude that says "I don't care about you, or anyone else; I don't care if anyone sees me with this attitude; and most of all I don't care what you think, because I am me, and that's how it is." My personality would never allow me to join the ranks of bitches. But I'd like to...
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So there are a lot of things I would say to people. Maybe I'm addressing this to you... maybe I'm not. Maybe you'll know I'm addressing you... maybe not. I wouldn't really say these things to people directly... it's just what I feel about them. So how's that? A bit of glimpse into Allison's thoughts.::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/16/2004 10:54:00 PM:.
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.:Saturday, May 15, 2004:.
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::I finished the work for the english class today.
I also discovered something that I'm considering posting. Maybe abridging it just a tad... particularly if Brett ever reads this, and I know he has the URL... so, yes. But I've rediscovered my last year's journal. How incredibly different life was back then! The troubles that seem so minute to me now were so important. Next year, will I think the same of the stress of this year?
On a different train of thought, I'm really glad that I'm an optimist.
And I had an 'aww' moment today. Sort of a sadness-inspiring moment, actually. It was sweet, though. Unintentionally, but it was.
I also think my brain is miswired. I cry when I'm positively furious but I am completely unable to cry when I'm sad.
Back to last year's journal- I think I'll post it, if a few people are interested in seeing it, so that I realise I won't be wasting my time typing it. So.. um.. if you do, comment, and say you do. And then I'll post it.::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/15/2004 09:13:00 PM:.
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.:Wednesday, May 12, 2004:.
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::I just saw something... this is so accurate it's amazing. Particularly 'secretive', but to point out one as being more true than another would simply be wrong because so much is true! Except... sexy? *laughs* Ha. Ha. Ha.
MARCH:
Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive.
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity.
Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy.
Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.
Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention.
Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented.
Loves special things. Moody
So... ran around in the rain today. Unintentionally. It was fun but very wet. I also found out another of the best words in the world, which is bacchanalia. Look it up in Val's electronic dictionary if you want the meaning... but just say it a few times. Then find a couple of your closest friends and tell them you want a bacchanalia... Ah yes. The power of words. I love the English language.
The song below has wonderful harmonies. Very tight.
The lyrics are so true. Whenever I sing at Meck, I'm in love with the music, the stage, the worship, the spotlight, the audience, and most essentially God.
It's so indubitably true.
Point of Grace - Sing a Song
If you sing a song a day
You will make a better way
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Sing a song
Sing a song
Sing a song
Everybody
When you feel down and out
Sing a song, it’ll make your day
Here’s a time to shout
Sing a song, it’ll make a way
Sometimes it’s hard to care
Sing a song, it’ll make your day
A smile so hard to bear
Sing a song, it’ll make a way
Sing a song
Sing a song
Sing a song
Sing a song
Won’t you bring your heart to believing
Sing a song, it’ll make your day
So life ain’t about no retrieving
Sing a song, it’ll make a way
You’ve got to give yourself what you need
Sing a song, it’ll make your day
You’ve got to smile, smile, smile and believe
Sing a song, it’ll make a way
Sing a song
Sing a song
Sing a song
Sing a song
If you sing a song a day
You will make a better way
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Everybody, sing a song::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/12/2004 08:29:00 PM:.
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.:Monday, May 10, 2004:.
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::Sesquipedalian lexicon is one of the best phrases. EVER.::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/10/2004 09:58:00 PM:.
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.:Sunday, May 09, 2004:.
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::Great song... Great lyrics... True lyrics, particularly the chorus. Mark Schultz has great lyrics and great music... all great.
RUNNING JUST TO CATCH MYSELF
-Mark Schultz
I am driving
I am late for work
Spilling coffee down my whitest shirt
While I'm flossing and I'm chaning lanes
Oh Yeah
Now I'm driving
Through the parking lot
Doing eighty, hey what the heck why not
Watch it lady,Cuz your in my spot
Once again,It's early to work
And here's a surprise, I got a McMuffin for just 99 cents today
I think they ran a special
CHORUS:
I can't stand still Can I get a witness Can you hear me Anybod,Anybody
I think I am running just to catch myself
Maybe someday I could fly away
Go to Key Largo or Montego Bay
Sport my spedo,maybe grab a tan
DREAM VACATION,WILD ELATION
Now I'm running
Straight into my boss
And he's angry, Oh and he calls me Ross
Which is funny ,cause that aint my name
And thats lame
I'm still running
Running very late, For a meeting
Wait, that was yesterday
Guess I'm early for the one next week,Oh how sweet
I get on the ladder, I corporately climb
I wave at my life as it passes me by everday
My name's not Ross!
CHORUS
Life in my cubicle is discreet, Life in my cubicle is neat
I've got some pictures of my friends
Some sharpened pencils...where's my pen
Ten O'clock I'm in a meeting
Paper cut I think I'm bleeding
Check my hair it's still receding, Hey what a life
Break for lunch, there's nothing better
Run outside and don my sweater
Like Fred Rogers let's be neighbors
I've lost my mind
I'm over worked, and underpaid,and non appreciated
It's just a perk of being of being middle class and educated
One... spinning circles in my chair
Two...win a game of solitaire
Three... And I ponder where my stapler's gone
Four O'clock and I stare at the door, And I stare at my watch, Then I stare at the door
I stand by my desk like I'm going to war
There's just one thing I'll be needing
Grab my paycheck as I'm leaving
Oh oh oh oh oh oh ohhhhhhh
Five O'clock it's time to go
There's crowds to fight anfd time to blow
I'm talking fast on my cell phone
Hey, watch out thats reckless driving!
Five O'clock
It's time to hit the couch And watch tv
Set the clock and go to sleep
It's 8 a.m. on monday morning
Again and again and again and again and again
Driving around, no where to go
And so I hang with my lady,
Oh, and chill with my bros
It's okay, in my Cabriolet
CHORUS
When I meet God, I will have a question
I just forgot my question
I think I am running just to catch myself
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
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.:Arakatze blogged on 5/09/2004 08:30:00 PM:.
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.:Saturday, May 08, 2004:.
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::Hmm.. I liked a bit of Nick's post, where he said "Without ____, who would I...?" I decided that would be a good idea, so I'm going to do one of my own...
Without Heidi, who could I enjoy for the smartness as well as the stoner bear moments? Without Andrew, who would bring sheer randomness into my life? Without Liz, who would I be able to laugh at, and through whom would I have met Shaneequa? Without Simon, who would I be fully, completely honest with? Oh, life would be weird, without Simon. Without Anna, who would bring the necessary weirdness into my life? Without Jesse, who would... what would... Jesse is too much to try to make into a question. Without Jesse life would also be weird. Without Alyssa, who would I play crazy games with and give advice to? Without Caroline, what would I have done my first B-Day at Northwest? Without Nick, who would I talk to in the mornings, and who would save me from the school bus, and who would take me places, and... enough said... Without Cassie, where would I have discovered the power of Fluzism, sporks, and staplers? Without Deanna, who would I be able to talk to about CPs without fear of my secret being spilled, and with supreme entertainment in the way of foundation and chairless, table-less rooms? Without Suzanne, from who would I have learned the art of extrovertness and supreme sarcasm? Without Candace, who would make me feel short? ;-) (and who else would have made me realise how much talent one person can have?) Without Jennifer, who would have adopted me as their junior? ;-) Without Rick, who would provide me with a chance to completely be in awe of talent, and whose accent could I make fun of? "bobble"... hahahaha.... Without Brett, who would I feel really funny around and who would make me feel really talented at life?
With the exception of the few Michigeese mentioned... these are the reasons why I love Charlotte, North Carolina. This is why I regret having to leave.::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/08/2004 08:46:00 PM:.
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.:Friday, May 07, 2004:.
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::Oh, I have rediscovered the wisdom of Adam Kander through the unfortunately not updated Adam and Riley site...... but here... one of the best quotes I've seen for a long while...
There are no requirements in life.
Think about it.
When you’re in school, there are always requirements. Write this paper, take this test, do this project. Requirements. Do this or else you will flunk; you will fail. That is how it works in school. But, that is not how it works in life.
If you are alive, then at some point you were born. At least, that is the theory we will go with. Now, you can’t prevent yourself from being born… and, you can’t control much that happens in the first few years of life. You are not yet developed enough to take control of your own destiny. So, I suppose my original statement is not quite correct. In the beginning stages of life, you do not really have any choices… so, in a way, everything you do is “required”. However, after you reach the point in your maturity where you are able to make your own choices… all of these requirements disappear.
You are not required to do anything. You don’t have to get out of bed, or eat, or remain alive if you don’t want to. You don’t have to go to college, get a job, make money, or raise a family. Our society tells us that we must do these things. The truth is, these are not requirements of life. Life requires nothing of us. We can do whatever we want. We can look at this as something either good or bad; an opportunity or a dismal proclamation of doom. Your life is yours to do with as you wish. You can conform to societies desires, and become another nameless person wandering through a world of rules and constraints. Or, you can choose to live outside of society, as an outcast, though perhaps with more freedom and expression. Or, you can choose any path in between. Life is completely open-ended. The only certainty is death. Everything else is up to you.
Have a nice life. I dare you.
-Adam J. Kander
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.:Arakatze blogged on 5/07/2004 09:33:00 PM:.
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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! Try this. I put in a few of my usernames... but this was the best.... hahahahaha.....
Erm, life's busy... APUSH is crazy, or at least the test was not the best in the world... the Arts Team meeting ruled and Kristina and Rick are awesome... and I guess that's it, for now.::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/07/2004 07:00:00 PM:.
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.:Wednesday, May 05, 2004:.
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::So I've been insanely busy. Is that a surprise to anyone? Um.. no. But I've been so busy that I've forgotten things... like Whiteside's homework today... and to call Deanna back... and to do pre-cal work... though I literally have not had the time anyway. I barely made it to church in time today, and that's just sad. P.Jim wasn't there, because he's in Africa, so Rick lead service and it was very interesting- Worship is very interesting- Life is very interesting- Ahh, so overwhelming to think about. I love talks like that. And we of course did great music too. That rocks.
Ooh, if you haven't had the chance to listen to my recording of "This Is Your Life" as performed by Meck, lead vocal Rick with backups Emily and Dana, I forgot who's on electric and bass, but Dave on acoustic and I think Hoagie's on drums... or something like that. In any case, if you haven't, talk to me online/in person/email me/call me, or whatever way is actually possible to contact me, and I'll give you the URL. Because it's GREAT... *listens happily*
Hmmm....
I've had so many little tasks on my mind, I haven't had the time to think of the bigger things, or the more overarching things... or, well, I don't know what it classifies as, but I haven't had much time to really talk to friends or anything at all... no sleep (well, a bit, but for the last two weeks I've been running on getting up between 5.50-7.15 and going to bed around 10-12. And even with that, I don't get the 10-7.15 extended sleep, but much more likely the 12-5.50. I can live alright without much sleep, though. I simpy value what I get.
The insane crazy senior english class is dominating my time entirely. Any free time, save for now because if I have to answer one more pointless question I'll explode, is spent doing that stupid syllabus work. And then I have to take the tests in class. AAAHHH- just what I need, something to take up even more of my time! How exciting! Not!
And yes, I love to be busy.
But when something monopolises the very limited free time I have, it is not good...
Cass, if you read this, which I think so, because you post comments occasionally- really, a letter is in the process of being sent.... well, it's written.... and it's somewhere.....
I have no furniture in my room. I also have no floor, it seems, in my room. Everything from all of the furniture I did have is on the floor. Everything that was under the bed is spread all over the floor. It is completely insane. I am sleeping in the guest bedroom. Because I can't sleep in my own ROOM... IF I have the time on Sunday after doing english work, IF I have that time we will start straightening it up. If not.... then another week of the guest room for me! If so... I get my own room back, minus a lot of furniture.
I've been a bit overwhelmed with the little things... the little tasks.... unimportant yet so important they must be done NOW or never... so they get in a waiting list and I multitask by doing everything while doing something else, or I go crazy. And when I do, I go crazy. So... what gives....
If I don't appreciate the groundwork I'm laying now, when I'm older... I'm going to be really annoyed.
I'm going to go plan my response to Rick's message now. I've decided it's pretty important just like studying for the AP exam and doing the english work- but it's just something to do now, something to do with my current self, something to let me take a breather and do something nice and enjoy it. You know what... it's because I think I deserve it.
Oh, and I went to the doctor yesterday. The cough is due to allergies, I'm perfectly healthy except for various moles which 'could develop into something dangerous', a dangerous curve in my spine otherwise known as scoliosis, and I had to have a blood test and a TB test, which is really the least of my worries, but I hate needles. So I have to make sure I don't need surgery on my back or anything like that, and if I do, I'm going to get really mad at somebody.... and yeah. I really needed that worry on top of everything else. Thanks a lot. It really helped relieve my stress!
Whiteside's fake Day Planner thing sounds awfully relaxing... 4.00- Go home, Lie down, Die.
Or a little relaxation would be nice. By relaxation I actually don't mean time alone- that's not what helps me relax. Just a friend or two, some good conversation, and some really good music in the background. Or some extra time at Meck, my haven of safe happiness and worship. But just sitting outside on one of these nice May days... talking and smelling spring... eating grapes and sipping lemonade... ahh I can practically visualise it now. Too bad it won't happen.::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/05/2004 10:51:00 PM:.
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.:Sunday, May 02, 2004:.
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::Oh, and if you've never heard Rick sing "Alive", then you're missing out on a near religious experience.... I sat backstage and listened to that song over and over.....
Ohh. So awesome. I want a recording.::
.:Arakatze blogged on 5/02/2004 08:35:00 PM:.
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::So... Prom was fun. So much. After prom was too, we didn't do much but I had a lot of fun anyway, I always do I guess. Yeah, and I'm a complete idiot. I did so many stupid things in one night....... I mean, wow. Aaahh. *hits self several times* Regrets.... oh, and not about not cha-cha-ing across the dance floor ;-)...
AP English tomorrow. I'd be thrilled except that I have a really busy day anyway. Which sucks.
I'll live.
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.:Arakatze blogged on 5/02/2004 05:37:00 PM:.
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Penguins, weasels, banana cakes, lemonade.
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