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::I'm in this weird possessed mood feeling like I'm going to explode, jump out of my skin, or like I could run for miles. I want to go on a nighttime walk. I want to lock myself in my room and turn up the music, so loud I feel it and it becomes my thoughts. To write and write until I am completely immersed in Enchantesia, in the mysterious character of Evan that I worked so, so hard for. I want to talk to every single one of my friends, and none of them. It's like I'm in this weird adrenaline rush where everything is heightened a hundred times more. Every single emotion.

Is this what it is like being a teenager?

I'm not an emotional person. Well, most of the time. Right now, maybe. It's not that I had an extremely eventful day. It's not because I have a big thing tomorrow... getting braces and all. And it's definitely not that it's.. ::cough:: that time of the month, because it's not. I have no idea while I'm like this. Not only that but I feel like being fully and completely honest, being truthful, confiding in someone. Which... I usually don't like to do or feel a want to do.

It's a weird mood.

I don't like it but I do like it. It's a bizarre feeling, like my whole body is on edge... waiting for something to happen.

I hope something does happen.

I know something will happen.

Confused, confiding and changing,
Arakatze::

.:Arakatze blogged on 1/19/2004 08:02:00 PM:.
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