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::Well... New Hampshire primaries are over. Like with the Iowa caucases, it is the only time someone actually cares about what happens in New Hampshire.
My brother is sick. Today I spent most of the day locked in my room, not wanting to touch anything he had touched. I know it seems so ridiculous, instead of avoiding him I should have been trying to help him. He felt miserable. I'm so terrified of being sick I can't even help him. I tried to but I went into panic mode whenever I got anywhere near him... HELP! GERMS! I'm going to get sick if I go too near!
I know.. it seems so ridiculous, spending so much time fearing something.

I'm pretty upset right now. It seems there are a lot of things pointing toward our leaving Charlotte. God...please... I don't want to. I really, really don't want to.
We don't know anything for sure at all, really.
We never do.
I'm not supposed to talk about it so I won't go into too many details.
I'm pretty upset over it though.

Tomorrow I will most likely be hiding out in my room again. I have disinfected a phone and am now keeping it in my room. Feel free to call.

I'm going to stop now. The more I type the more worried I'll become. It doesn't help to worry... right? So why am I?

I can't help it.

Goodnight, I think it may be time for me to go soak my pillow.::

.:Arakatze blogged on 1/27/2004 10:25:00 PM:.
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