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::Ahh, I feel like ranting now. I have decided I hate Valentine's Day. It only reminds me how single I am. Which, if you ask me, is crap. It's one thing to have people I can (almost) trust. I still hate talking to people about my problems because I feel like I'm complaining to them and that's always bad. A relationship is quite different......
But I am not going to be unhappy now, I'm determined. Having read over some of my previous blogginesses, I am stunned by my complete lack of... optimism. I am generally pretty optimistic, at least I've always tried to be, but when I feel really bad about something, I rant about it and it turns into... this. Where's a person I can rant to... blogs don't reply. But their complete indifference is also helpful in a way. I think I just committed grammer suicide, but for once I don't care. That's something I'm usually nitpicky on, but I'm not going to be right now.
Hmm...today...Theatre was fun, we did morality improvs, which are I suppose anything but moral. Jazz was... jazz, we are working on our dances for the concert. Chemistry, as always- [C][Ra][P]. I'm so pleased with myself that I came up with a way to use those elements in a way I find ironic- I wonder if there's some sort of chemical formula with those elements. It doesn't matter, I'm too tired to worry about it anyway.
Since Saturday, I've had 16 hours of sleep. Total. I should be completely exhausted and want to go to bed right now. But I don't. I still have Absalom, Absalom! to read and a couple chapters of history to review, although I actually am optimistic about my chances on the history quiz for once, because I feel I know this stuff pretty well now.
I think I was going somewhere with explaining the different parts of my day. I don't remember what I was trying to accomplish though, so I think I will end it here.
There, I finished my attempt at a cheerful, happy blog entry. It's not depressing. It's not...deep. No looking into my own psyche, I guess. But it worked... ::
.:Arakatze blogged on 2/11/2004 09:13:00 PM:.
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Penguins, weasels, banana cakes, lemonade.
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quote:"I remember sitting in my car in the parking lot, overwhelmed with a single thought: That's what I want for my life: To be caught up in the sweep of history. To be in the center of things. To be making a difference. To be at the heart of the struggle between right and wrong, good and evil. My heart was almost breaking at the thought of a life of insignificance."
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