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::Just noticed something completely random- on that thing on the top of my blog with the ads, it says, "Related searches: blog, weasel". HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! 'weasel'!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know why it's so funny. It just is.. okay?

Book review is not due until the end of the week now. Yay. That gives me time to think about something other than Gettysburg tonight, and to work more on MWDS. I went to REALife tonight, which I still find much too superficial for a church activity. Rather disappointing as well as someone who used to devote a lot of time to me has started to completely ignore me, and though he wasn't my best friend, and I might not exactly have responded well to him... it is still disappointing. Sad. Though it may or may not have had to do with me, I'm convinced I did something wrong... I'm asking myself why I even care, but I most certainly do. Whether I want to or not. And there is someone else I'm concerned I'm distancing. Although I talked to one of my old best friends in Michigan and realised something... Brett, I love you for this... When I'm somewhere or talking to someone I feel completely comfortable with, I am quite different than I am on, say, the average school day. Deanna and Alyssa too- I talk to you guys and I am making funny jokes and talking offhandedly about personal things without really... thinking about it, and I'm confident and randomweird and more Allison than I'm used to being. I thought I was changing but after such conversations as that I feel myself slipping back into my old role of self, something that seems more comfortable and happy than the quiet, daydreamy self I find in North Carolina. I am both more self and less self. I am the old Michigan me. And you know what?
*laughs* It rocks.

~*~You mean everything to me... it is you that makes my life worth living.~*~::

.:Arakatze blogged on 3/01/2004 10:43:00 PM:.
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