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::Why do I feel like, despite my efforts, I'm hitting a brick wall?
I put so much effort into making a step forward, and I seem to slide back.
And then there's the doubt, the distrust in self, that prevents further confiding, further prying, further effort.... there's that distancing almost imperceptible, could it be only in my imagination or is it out there? Am I as annoying as my constant reflection on things said in the past seems to show?
It'd be so much easier if I could hate you. But I don't. I can't.::
.:Arakatze blogged on 3/23/2004 08:53:00 PM:.
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.:Arakatze's Rant:.
Penguins, weasels, banana cakes, lemonade.
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quote:"I remember sitting in my car in the parking lot, overwhelmed with a single thought: That's what I want for my life: To be caught up in the sweep of history. To be in the center of things. To be making a difference. To be at the heart of the struggle between right and wrong, good and evil. My heart was almost breaking at the thought of a life of insignificance."
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