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::So I've been insanely busy. Is that a surprise to anyone? Um.. no. But I've been so busy that I've forgotten things... like Whiteside's homework today... and to call Deanna back... and to do pre-cal work... though I literally have not had the time anyway. I barely made it to church in time today, and that's just sad. P.Jim wasn't there, because he's in Africa, so Rick lead service and it was very interesting- Worship is very interesting- Life is very interesting- Ahh, so overwhelming to think about. I love talks like that. And we of course did great music too. That rocks.

Ooh, if you haven't had the chance to listen to my recording of "This Is Your Life" as performed by Meck, lead vocal Rick with backups Emily and Dana, I forgot who's on electric and bass, but Dave on acoustic and I think Hoagie's on drums... or something like that. In any case, if you haven't, talk to me online/in person/email me/call me, or whatever way is actually possible to contact me, and I'll give you the URL. Because it's GREAT... *listens happily*

Hmmm....
I've had so many little tasks on my mind, I haven't had the time to think of the bigger things, or the more overarching things... or, well, I don't know what it classifies as, but I haven't had much time to really talk to friends or anything at all... no sleep (well, a bit, but for the last two weeks I've been running on getting up between 5.50-7.15 and going to bed around 10-12. And even with that, I don't get the 10-7.15 extended sleep, but much more likely the 12-5.50. I can live alright without much sleep, though. I simpy value what I get.

The insane crazy senior english class is dominating my time entirely. Any free time, save for now because if I have to answer one more pointless question I'll explode, is spent doing that stupid syllabus work. And then I have to take the tests in class. AAAHHH- just what I need, something to take up even more of my time! How exciting! Not!
And yes, I love to be busy.
But when something monopolises the very limited free time I have, it is not good...

Cass, if you read this, which I think so, because you post comments occasionally- really, a letter is in the process of being sent.... well, it's written.... and it's somewhere.....

I have no furniture in my room. I also have no floor, it seems, in my room. Everything from all of the furniture I did have is on the floor. Everything that was under the bed is spread all over the floor. It is completely insane. I am sleeping in the guest bedroom. Because I can't sleep in my own ROOM... IF I have the time on Sunday after doing english work, IF I have that time we will start straightening it up. If not.... then another week of the guest room for me! If so... I get my own room back, minus a lot of furniture.

I've been a bit overwhelmed with the little things... the little tasks.... unimportant yet so important they must be done NOW or never... so they get in a waiting list and I multitask by doing everything while doing something else, or I go crazy. And when I do, I go crazy. So... what gives....

If I don't appreciate the groundwork I'm laying now, when I'm older... I'm going to be really annoyed.

I'm going to go plan my response to Rick's message now. I've decided it's pretty important just like studying for the AP exam and doing the english work- but it's just something to do now, something to do with my current self, something to let me take a breather and do something nice and enjoy it. You know what... it's because I think I deserve it.

Oh, and I went to the doctor yesterday. The cough is due to allergies, I'm perfectly healthy except for various moles which 'could develop into something dangerous', a dangerous curve in my spine otherwise known as scoliosis, and I had to have a blood test and a TB test, which is really the least of my worries, but I hate needles. So I have to make sure I don't need surgery on my back or anything like that, and if I do, I'm going to get really mad at somebody.... and yeah. I really needed that worry on top of everything else. Thanks a lot. It really helped relieve my stress!

Whiteside's fake Day Planner thing sounds awfully relaxing... 4.00- Go home, Lie down, Die.

Or a little relaxation would be nice. By relaxation I actually don't mean time alone- that's not what helps me relax. Just a friend or two, some good conversation, and some really good music in the background. Or some extra time at Meck, my haven of safe happiness and worship. But just sitting outside on one of these nice May days... talking and smelling spring... eating grapes and sipping lemonade... ahh I can practically visualise it now. Too bad it won't happen.::

.:Arakatze blogged on 5/05/2004 10:51:00 PM:.
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